November, 2014

 There I was, drowning in complete sadness while watching everything that I had ever imagined and wished for my life falling apart right in front of my very own eyes.
 I was loosing interest in mostly everything: my masters degree, that had wished so hard to get in to... friendships, parties, men, even food wasn't making me happy anymore (I had lost the only person I used to cook to) there was no point on cooking good meals, I just wanted to survive the day, every day.
I started going to the gym, that helped, but I didn't expected a miracle. I needed something, I didn't knew what it was but I needed it desperately, madly...  and then one day, while taking the subway to yet another masters class that just couldn't seem to fulfill me, I decided to give a second chance to a book that I had purchased in July, and that I had saved aside after reading a few pages and never really understanding them.
That book was called "O Aleph", by Paulo Coelho, and it changed everything.

"(...)He paused, getting more and more irritated because I couldn't seem to understand what he was trying to explain to me.
-It doesn't matter if I stay here and use words that don't mean anything. Go and try it out. It's time for you to get out of here. Reconquer your kingdom, now corrupted by routine."


The minute I read it I knew I needed to do something about it. It was my wake up call, I needed to get out of here, I needed to get out of my comfort zone. And mostly, I needed to get out of the dark.